Surviving My Life

Forgiveness

For a couple of years now, I've been dealing with the ramifications of my previous actions. So far I've managed to mend many bridges that others thought were impossible.

Of that, I am proud.

However, recently I attempted to contact an old friend to try and repair what had been done - or, more appropriatly, what I had done wrong. They didn't want anything to do with me.

They told me that they forgave me, but that they "didn't trust me" and didn't want to talk to me anymore.

My question is how does one fix such a problem? How do you fix a bridge when the other person won't even let you try?

Bridges are funny things. There are two sides to them and when bridges are built they are built from two sides of the river/canyon/valley by two seperate crews. You can't build a bridge from one side only. If you did, when you made it to the center, the bridge would collapse because there wasn't anything there for that side to merge with.

I wish that there was some way to mend the bridge with this person, but right now they don't even want to talk to me.

How does one come back from that type of failure? Is it their fault for not trying to mend fences, or is it mine for having failed so badly in the past? I don't know.

I just hope one day they can find it in their heart to see I'm not the same idiot anymore.

posted by Jeremiah @ 22:37